waltz

I know it'll have an end
my angel of death
all the comfort, all the warmth
the safety of your arms
will fade into oblivion
soon

I know you'll kiss my life away
so dance with me today
shadows of the dark
ignite a dying spark

I know I have my demons to feed
yet I let my passion bleed
memories of you
in blue
I followed you into the ocean's depth
sought to touch your last breath

I know a ghost's pursue

would kill me before you

danced with me at long last
empty spirits of a forgotten past

I know my feelings would rot

before I woke up

still life's pulsing through my veins
and I let slip I'm in chains
I know this waltz would crumble
there's no light at the end of the tunnel
yet beneath the sounds of anguish
there's a wish

to dance with me veiled within screams
silhouettes of shredded dreams
dance with me till the end

my angel of death

akvaMarinka

goodbye

there's winter in my head

its snow hides within the stench of the dead

laughter went first, then my smile

now even my tears lie lifeless in a sty

slaughtered dreams, dried up hopes

stare at innocence's putrefied corpse

love buried six feet under

faded into the howling thunder

of morality's abandoned graveyard

filled with withered flowers, suffocating scars

as the stars gaze at the nothingness of reality

embedded into lethargic vanity 

while those compulsive urges writhe in agony

trying in vain to abstain from this depravity

I fed my illusions sheltered them well

time to say goodbye

bye bye bloodless butterfly

I still smell those dandelions

they're like an imprint on numb neurons

reminiscent of suppressed times

when unattainable ideals ruthlessly smiled

when there was no infection flooding through my veins
my tiny little yellow hurricanes
waiting for me to revive their seductiveness 

lured into nothing less
than abomination-like fantasies

heartbroken soul remedies

i'm but a slave so cold
with no pure petals left to withhold
lost among caresses tainted with blood
wondering about the stars above
all those regrets i miss so much
a memory of a faded touch

I fed my illusions, sheltered them well

so goodbye

bye bye bloodless butterfly

them stars yet gaze at squalid tears

as cumbersome echoes mumble in my ears

a lullaby with razorblade bows on my wrists

and I listen to its tunes released in the mist

dripping steadily into the abyss
of unconsciousness

beautiful madness
stay blessed

I fed my illusions sheltered them well

one last time I kiss you goodbye

so bye bye bloodless butterfly

I will let you die

paulska graszka

without title

blue bird

butterfly

interior