it

it has caught me, ripping me apart 

somehow I knew from the start 

and still, I went forward 

hoping I could change a heart

I was stubborn going ahead

imagining I can better the bad

yet I've lost my head 

in the devious process instead 

I followed my ethics every day

thinking it was the right way

but it has caught me today

and I'm afraid I won't get away 

what a shame, what a shame 

my days are all the same

every one of them so lame

goes by as they came

I'm a prisoner of my own mind 

dragging my chains blind 

I left everything behind

even my fights have resigned 

my wings are broken 

my dreams stolen 

and floating around as an evil omen

the gates of hell await wide open

finally, now I can see

there's no lighting up with glee

no ever being free

as life has caught up on me 

sleep

the wolves were howling

and I was staring 

I don't even know how I got here

I fear

can't move forward can't move back 

trapped

I feel no hunger and no pain

there's only disdain

for everything and everyone 

vanity undone

petty lies

hopeless cries

only lust

and sheer distrust 

and the wolves were howling into the moon

they're gonna be here soon

drawn by the blood

dripping into the mud

I can't even remember how

but I'm here now

hung to a tree

seeing the wailing banshee

drown the sorrow

of tomorrow 

as a gross reminder 

she comes closer

she understands 

what I am

my only friend 

left in the end

as the wolves were howling 

I could feel them drooling

slowly on my skin

whispers screaming I'm here

the warmth of their breath

and their cold wrath

preparing for war

no more

no more roses or thorns

no more faking emotions 

no more useless progress

no more mess

so sleep

sleep, my darling, deep

through the night 

through the fight 

be the rainbow

sleep, my doe