alone

I thought you were him

the dream in my dream 

the yearn from the hole

that soothes my soul 

I thought you were here

holding me dear

hand in hand

until the end

it's all in my head

my dream is dead

my door is screeching

my floor is creaking 

the silence's screaming

you are not alone

all on your own 

it's all in my head

my dream is dead  

you tricked me again 

but I am to blame 

I've let it happen 

and now I'm broken 

I'm drifting away

no reason to stay

in this shitpit of life

no longer alive

it's all in my head 

my dream is dead 

my world is shaking 

my strength is breaking 

the silence's howling 

you are not alone 

all on your own 

it's all in my head 

my dream is dead 

the pain is all gone

my lungs are now numb

I choke on the air

obnoxious affair 

the darkness glistens

none's there to listen 

the angels aren't there

the demons don't care

my heart is bleeding 

my self is dying

my silence's roaring 

I am alone

all on my own 

idibera

beautiful beeing

one of a kind 

cursed with the gift of seeing 

even though she was blind

braided golden hair locks 

fell on her pale shoulders 

her blue gaze like the hawk's 

never revealed to others

she walked this earth 

knowing the future

yet she gave birth

to this peerless culture

she taught them 

to read and to write 

only to cause mayhem

in the turning of twilight 

she's still watching

from somewhere afar

what life is like living 

trapped in a jar

sunlit

I stared into those glassy eyes 

and I cried cried cried

my tears dripping right inside 

wishing to make them alive 

even for a single second 

I craved to fill the emptiness 

to find the missing bond

feel less of the mess

then I closed them lids

as if sleeping they would say

but they felt heavy amidst

this forsaken sunlit day

I heard chatter from afar

gibberish and some laughter 

I could not make sense at all

of this forever after

they lowered the coffin 

deep into the ground 

the thuds filled it to the brim

a soul never to be found

yet I still see them glassy eyes 

and I cried cried cried 

dried up tears and sweet lies 

as on that sunlit day I too died