the infection

as silence broke in tears

echoing the wails of sorrow
the blazing sky overwhelmed by fears
is looking forward to no tomorrow
and my thoughts - sunken in the blue beneath
breathe

I slit my wrists open again
released the demon from its den
no more whispers no more shrieks
a final free fall from faith's cliff

and I walk this pier to loneliness

away from the mirage of boats fishing for my dreams

with every step recollecting less and less

far from the whirlpool of all those petty deeds

until I'm with nothing left 

except

that glimpse on the mouldy pages of a trifling life

planned to be glowing with pleasure and pride

a home filled with laughter 

and a happy ever after

all but forlorn hopes

of a corpse 

I slit my wrists open today

watched your light fade away

wither along with the smiles 

awaiting demise

and I turn around dragging them corroded shackles

remnants of a futile war melody

trapped in a circle bleeding out merciless miracles

loathsome infection - incurable malady
goddamn ramblings in a tormented mind of a stray

in decay

where does it end

the howling of the siren

in my head?

where does it end

the wheeze of death

filled with dread?

where does it end

the vanity of many a friend 

as things get bad?

where does it end?

does it end?

or am I doomed to be a ghastly ghoul

walking among these spiteful souls?

...

I slit my wrists open once again

screaming thy name - gone insane

mother, take my blood and let it fall

paint them red end them all