caught up in what they call life
fake fallacies, fucked up paradise
dressed up as light lies
lies etched deep into lullabies
'you're fine'
'it gets better'
'just give it time'
smile
leave it all behind
one step into the dark - eyes blind
(and the willows whisper)do it
do it now
is it day, is it night
so damn tired to fight
caught between
the glimmering sound of neon light
and a sun that never sets just right
caught within
'pain is growth'
'you're not alone'
'love is real'
'there is home'
yet love's nothing but a contract
way too frigid, too abstract
loneliness sings in bones
a journey into the catacombs
of my mind
love is nothing
and the mirrors grin while mouths decay
hysteric breakdown on the way
smile
lock the scream inside
one more step - dark eyes blind
(and the winds whisper)
do it
do it
do it now
shadows writhe beneath the ground
shhh, don't you dare make a sound
'work hard'
'be kind'
'you'll rise'
yet ladders are made of smoke
unhinged struggle not to choke
betrayal is what I inhale
no more cards left to play
as the clocks bleed backwards today
smile
do not cry, do not hide
bathe in shadows' dark eyes blind
(and the voices whisper)
do it
do it
do it now
pull the trigger
do it now
something breaks from deep within
not like glass, but thick as sin
a dam of static cold and wide
cracks beneath the cage inside
not a scream — no sound, no breath
just an humming hush of death
a floodless flood, a blackened tide
where ghosts of my life reside
a spill of selves, let loose, set free,
all versions I once pretended to be
all versions I once pretended to be
the child who dreamed
the lover who begged
the worker who smiled on command
the daughter who disobeyed
the mother who yet stayed
the loser who weeped
the painter who bled
the witch who beguiled
the killer who craved suicide
gone
melted in the voltage of too much silence
and blood stained innocence
my hands shake but don't feel a thing
my chest is full with echoes howling
cold steel wrapped in velvet vows
there's only my darkness that shows
(and the wraiths whisper)
do it
do it
do it now
pull the trigger
do it now