stars

I'm neither here nor there

I wish I could be everywhere 

I wish I could fly

I wish I could die

I've lost track of time again

and again I see how worthless I am

I see vanity 

even in my own sanity 

there's nothing left to say

it's always the same day

every day

I'm  okay

I just...

I miss them nights

under the northern lights 

when I felt alive 

when the wolves were howling 

and the fire was burning 

burning away the emptiness 

as I enjoyed loneliness

I'm neither here nor there

I simply sit and stare

glare into the night 

until it turns to day - bright -

but my eyes - they see no light 

they only burn with spite

spite for love, spite for joy,

spite for the guise I wore

and there's nothing left to do

but to die and die anew 

I'm neither here nor there 

a redundant shell wasting the air

the craze is gone

and I'm all alone

I'm the residue of my life

playing with a knife 

three minutes if I'm strong enough 

an eternity if I'm not

and there's nothing left

I am bereft

of a soul 

I am the black hole

I'm neither here nor there

yet I wish I could care

about the stars on my sky 

as they fade away 

one by one

gone